dark days

It's 11:23am. I am still in bed. The curtains are closed and my room is dark... just like my mind. Depression is raging. Intrusive thoughts and feelings of hopelessness are crowding my mind and I'm getting claustrophobic. I pull the blankets over my head and try to empty my loud mind. I need to shower. …

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one thing God is convicting me of

One thing God has been convicting me of is that I have fallen into the self-help, self-love 'gospel.' What is the self-help gospel? This is a belief that by focusing on yourself, you can then better yourself. If you are going through hard times, you just need to spend a little more time with yourself, …

walls

How am I suppose to become an author when I have nothing to write about? When everyday is mundane? I could tell you about the walls in this room. The two shades of blue that make me feel sea sick like I am standing on a dock on the Gulf of Mexico. The walls tell …

confessions

God has been silent recently. I haven't heard him. Maybe I'm being too loud. Maybe I'm too distracted. Or maybe he's just being quiet. I haven't got much out of the time I spend reading the bible. I feel stuck. I read the words but they don't stick. I cant comprehend what I am reading …

NYE

New Years Eve is my favorite holiday. I love the universal sense of hope that lingers in the air. The sense of wanting to change for the better. Of course, by March we've long forgotten our New Years Resolution - but I love that we, as a world, want to become thing better at least …